sooo i think i'm finally gonna start using xanga again.  it's been forever since i've used it and i didn't realize how much i've changed since i read ALL my entries.  the way i act is more with confidence i guess. i've learned not to care as much what people think of me.  i've found some really awesome people in MI but IL will always be the best :)  i still talk to madeline & stephanie (bestfriends since 6th grade!) atleast every weekend.  my overall style has definately changed! i've found myself more and my music has changed somewhat! haha japanese music isn't all i listen to anymore; ROCK ROCK ROCKK MUSIC lol heres all the genres i listen to now: rock, indie, metal, industrial, jpop, kpop, jrock, electronica, techno, punk, r&b...mmmhmm..i'm glad i'm more open! ;) I WAS SOOOO FREAKING WEIRDDDDDDD IN MIDDLE SCHOOL. lmao when i was reading my old blogs i was like "wow, i'm sucha loser" lol i still think i'm a loser, but not soooo loserish :D  i went to germany over the summer!! i decided to take german sophmore year and i love it!! i'm pretty good at the language too. i'm going to germany again this summer! that's how much i loved it! it really is a beautiful place to see. hmm..i said in my past blogs that i was going to japan when i was 17? haha wow how things have changed. i'm actually going to germany hahaa. i've lost most of my japanese. i pretty much gave up; waiting till i get to college so i can take a class, since i learn better that way.  also, i was hoping in the past to get a boyfriend...anddd that still hasn't changed, but you know what, i don't care so much! whatever happens, happens.  i'm just going along with the flooowww now.  i still see some cute guys at school but eh..like i said, whatever happens, happens. ahhaa ohh btw, i love billy talent and i'm seeing them april 20th!! woooot! also, my friend from germany, mara (i met her while i was there) is coming to visit tomorrow! she's staying for 2 weeks and right after she leaves, lukas (my actual exchange partner) is coming for 2 weeks!! sooooo 4 weeks, i'll have a german kid at my housee ^^ its reallyyy fun hosting exchange students! hehehe. btw, when i get in college i want to double major in german & animation! hehe and after i learn german, i want to study japanese so i can be trilingual :)  yesss, this blog is alllll over the place but its because i didn't know where to start! but i'll post more laterrr. love yass <3

heyy. my life sucks! i want to move back to IL so bad! i still don't have many friends!! i miss my old life!! everytime i think about IL and my friends i cry! why did my dad have to transfer!! he's always the reason we move! or his job is, but still! my mom keeps saying "it'll get better." but it hasn't! the people here aren't willing to meet new people. i try to talk but people ignore me! it's so damn gay! i hate it when i see people in the hallways with their friends saying "hey! how are you?" and i just walk on by....i remember when i did that with my friends! i hate my life!!!! moving sucks ASS!!

heeyy peeps! i'm pissed!! he doesn't like me back!! he said he didn't even care!! what a fucken bastard!! oh well, NEXT! haha! i saw SAW 2 of saturday with my brother and sister. it was sooo good!! suprising? yes! gory? yes!(very) haha! it was good though. nothing really happened today. it was a half day..so yeah. i'll add more tomorrow!